Discussion Questions
1. Can you remember a time when you were much more fervent for God? What are some reasons you give yourself for not going all out for God? What do you think God says about them?
My City harvest day when I serve in the sound ministry. Almost every sunday at expo and rush to jurong west after service for other services there. All major events etc. And yet still able to bring friends. I remember bringing more than 10 friends and all of them answer to the altar call during easter. But none return though.
I been asking myself why am I not serving yet in any ministry. struggling between the thin line of staying in my comfort zone or am I ask to serve in a different way that is to evangelize and taking care of friends when they are here, but the sisters in the CG serve and are able to save souls in the same time as well. So i ask myself am i using evangelism as an excuse. Now I am able to make Sunday, God’s Day and not work, I am still praying for God to guide me in this area.
2. How have you experienced the discipline of God in your life? (If you haven’t, then according to the bible you are not a child of God!)
- Financial planning. God gave me a 6 figure income last year and now he took everything back again. Because i haven been a good steward of God’s provision. Now that we are in the Give to King season, actually I am glad that I got nothing to give, this is because i dont have to go through the painful process of sacrificial giving and stay within my comfort zone. When i listen to the sermon on sunday I felt God asking me to stop giving excuses and do something about my financies. So instead of waiting for weichun to send me his excel spreadsheet that will help me with my financial planning, i spend the rest of the night after bowling last week to work out one on my own. I felt God also asking me for immediate actions that is to tithe with what i am left. I wanted to wait till i break even again than to start tithing. But God is saying tithe now! So I am going to tithe with the amount i borrowed from my brother this week. And from here on i will tithe not only my commission but all source of other incomes and referrals, which is a substantiate amount too. And the things i wanted to do in Thailand will have to take a secondary priority until I am able to fulfil what is required of me in Singapore first because how am I suppose to make a difference in a foreign land when I cant even do the same on my home ground? I trust in God’s timing, that all my plans for thailand will come to past in his own timing. But first I must be “useable”.
- My wants. giving in to what i want to do vs what God want me to do. I miss my muay thai family and i want to spend time with them. I have not seen them for months and i couldnt join them for the trip to pattaya this time round. I know they are disappointed and they kinda accept the fact that they have lost me as a close friend. When i told one of them that i feel sad i couldnt join them in pattaya and her replied really hurt me deeply. She said that when they are away, things are still the same because i haven been eating with them after training for months anyway. But God is telling me to do what is more important and meaningful and that is being there for my friends (like marco) during this difficult time and guide them to Jesus to build God’s house. If only serving God could lessen the pain.
3. What has God been stirring up in your heart to do? Are you heeding him or hardening your heart?
I dont wanna be a missionary that is struggling. having to rely on churches to support my works in the field. I have a vision that is to be sustainable on my own or my own resources. And mayb thailand is not my mission field. That is what I want to do because of my friends there. I wanna pray more and to be sure of my intention and to make sure its God’s calling instead of my own calling.
